okay, after spending some time wif alvin yesterday, im kinda influenced. i wan to be big too!(physically), i suddenly feel like bodybuilding. BUT im still too short=( , i start bodybuilding then cannot grow le leh, how arh? nvm getting my arms big wun hurt i suppose. no need coleman, randyorton can le (scroll up), proportion n nice muscle tone.

haven realli touch hw, hav been gbing alot theese days, later i will chiong de, cos 2day got no match. speaking of match 2moro grandslam sunday. liverpool vs manure. gooners vs chelscum. COME ON YOU REDS!

now pullups, im still stuck at the 12 to 14 range, its hard to rise lar. nvr improve, sian, 28days le, my 1 month thing gonna reach le, arh!

HELP!!!!

Nuthin' to it but to do it.

back frm bonding camp. super tired, BUT im gonna watch liverpool vs reading, WHILE chionging hw. had fun times n sian times, but i gotta say the camp was not bad not bad =)

i got a new target this yr. just set due to mr yeow influence. i wanna b strong, not onli physically, but mentally oso, so in order to do tht, i shall not use vulgarities anymore(walao excluded).

this week kinda sian, i eat too much and i hardly work out. most importantly i tried study but ended up not completing majority of the hw. hate myself sia. summore my english journal haven do yet, the 1 thts suppose to pass up on holi de wednesday, i l8 a few days liao lar, mr kevin gonna killl me fer sure.

so in order to walk out of sku alive, i must chiong hw, then train up (in case mr kevin tries to kill me). so 2nite n 2moro, i promise no gb liao. i realli feel like playing lar, arh, but must train my mental strength.

People do not lack strength,
they lack will.

dam tired.

its not easy to RUN 10km when u just did interval training the day b4 u noe.

im quite happy with my performance 2day, not bcos get 1st, but bcos i didnt gave up despite of the pain.

went to ecp by squeezing into mr tong car. we r like saying hello to everybody we meet, cos the window is open. so everytym we past some1 unknown, we will shout hello out of the window, then turn away, its like super 0.0 after tht met mr yeow at ecp mac then began running. there the wind dam cooling sia, v nice to run.

this few weeks, theres this 'stomach sucker' following me around when ever i run. he seems to catch up with me everytym i ran more than 3km. he apparently like my top left hand corner of my stomach, so everytym i run he will whack me.

i oredy gave up twice bcos of him, thankfully i didnt this time. he came to find me again 2day at about 2.5km, but i managed to shake him off at the 5km mark, there were times when i realli felt like stopping, but i endure through le then, hey he's gone. hopefully he dont come n find me again. ( if u realli thought im refering to a person, u are seriously....)

after run we went eat. then catch stuff toy again. i spent 8 bucks on a not cute yellow monkey, ARGH!!!!!!! dun wan elaborate, later i suddenly chiong to ecp there to try catch toy again, but the process is seriously freaking funny, the ppl there must hav thought we r a bunch of childish kids screaming around.

after tht walk home frm bus stop near the park conncetors, can realli feel the strain. running tht time nvr feel, walking tht tym i was struggling like mad.

oya, to all those tht care, high hopes = more disappointment, so yeah, we should stop tinking bout it le, lets just enjoy our last few training 2gether as a part. i let fate decide it for me. now i shall just try to study hard n catch up during this week.

n surprisingly my L1R5 aint as bad as i tout, its below 20, specifically 18, yay cheers. it may b v v bad to u smart asses out there, but to me its like a 2nd chance. so must BA1 WO4! i will aim for a 2/3 improvement, meaning i trying for L1R5 12 for MYE.

oya pull ups, apparently its been 9 days le, 21 more days to my deadline of 15 pullup. i just need 2 more to go. so 10 days improve by 1 also can, shud b enuf time de :)

i 2nite will stop all training n studying n i shall enjoy to the fullest. shall plae psp, watch some dvd( provided i can stay awake), then shall sleep like a pig later, this 3 months i lacked lots of sleep.

long post. enough to last for a week anot?

The best way to make your dreams come true
is to wake up.

HAIZ

no chance le lar now.
no chance at all le.
who am i gonna blame this time round?
no one else but myself.

my hard work theese few months
sadly WILL NOT pay off.
looks like this few month's
effort will just go down the drain.

i will get wad im suppose to get,
not something i wanna get.

i guess i nvr study hard enuf ba,
i deserved it de.
im prepared to get
wad im suppose to get.

there is ppl out there
tht r much beta than me
better results
better fitness
better leadership
mayb i shud just run for another post

but nvm
its not as if im not used to disappointment
i will just hav to experience it again

hate tht dam feeling

so frm 2day on
i shall study for my own sake,
not for tht post anymore.
I SUCK.

quoted frm csm lewis blog:
"cuz i oso aimin fer a post one n i noe i will NVR get it so jus accept wad u get"

hes the asm, u cant disagree with him, cant u?